Eye of the Storm

I know that I still owe you a sum-up from the past two appearances, and I promise that I will get to that soon, but right now I am exhausted.1

Normally I have a day or two to relax before going back to work after a convention appearance. My age and my generalized social anxiety make this necessary. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm just not as young as I used to be. Staying up super late and the caffeinating the Hell out of my system in order to be at least semi-coherent for an early morning panel takes more and more out of me.

Then there is the whole I've-spent-the-weekend-around-people-and-as-much-as-I-loved-it-I-really-need-some-time-alone-with-my-dogs thing. I am NOT, by nature, a social animal. I've discussed this before, but for those who are new
2, I am pretty much an introvert. I've had a number of people tell me that this surprises them. The truth is that when I am speaking in front of a group or networking or engaging in most social interactions, I am playing the role of someone who is comfortable doing this. There are a couple of tricks I use to "get into character."3 It seems to go pretty well.

The thing is, you can't always be in character.
4 You, or at least I, need some down time away from people. Seriously, being away from the pack5 for the weekend is tough on me, especially when it involves overnighting.6 So, like I said, I usually have the day off from the day job to reset.

Of course, I don't usually do four appearances four weekends in a row.

What this means is that right now I am a tight little ball of stress. I'm desperately trying not to think
8 about the reading that I have at the gathering of professional Horror Writers in just a few days. I'm trying to relax as much as I can while also staying up to date on all of the material I need to keep up with.10

Don't worry, I'll be my usual charming self this weekend. Please come by and check out our space in the Vendor's Room.

And if you want to throw a hug my way, or drop of some chocolate, or a drink, it would be much appreciated.

1 Like, I'm writing this with only one eye open right now tired.


3 If I'm in a kilt and there isn't Celtic music playing somewhere, I'm probably "in character."

4 Unless you are totally Method, but then you end up like Jared Leto — sending rats to costars and having all of your scenes end up on the cutting room floor.

5 The Mrs, Tesla, and Titus.

6 Which I do at local Cons, even those within easy driving range, if I know that there will be late night panels, drinking, or a combination of both. I don't want to drive impaired, because I'm not a dick.

7 Well, yes I am, but not a dick in that way.

8 And failing.

9 Miserably.

10 Did I mention that Dragon's Roost Press is open for